GIRLS DAY OUT

actually it was more of a girl's day out. notice the apostrophe on girls? hehehe that's because i went solo on sunday. my typical sunday gimik. my days used to consist of lots of friends, smoke, coffee and a whole bunch of chitchats that we just never run out of. and now, i do it .. solo.

& i didn't get to go to the bronx zoo on saturday.

so i spent most of my days torturing myself with thoughts that i can't get rid of. evil, negative thoughts that ruin my day and make me a pissed off woman. i was having one of those life analysis moment. the moments with repressed emotions haunting you, moments of wanting to break down because sometimes life is just too much to handle, moments of missing your coffee/smoke breaks with the bestest people in the world, moments of acceptance, moments of grief, moments of disappointment, moments of questions left unaswered, moments of all the "why?", or moments of thinking about the future & what to do with my existence.... those typical thoughts.

and it's hard cuz i get those thoughts a lot. *sigh* i'm not unhappy. i just think a lot. and it's driving me off the wall.