Terrifying News

I don't recall ever being terrified. I may have been scared before. Never extremely terrified. It was a mixture of emotions when I received a call from my mom on my cell last week. She never calls my cell and given the circumstance I knew it was important to see mom's name come up in my caller id. I listened to her talk. She said "prince, not good" in almost a hopeless voice. My blood rushed up 100 miles per hour and i felt a sting of warmth poke through my skin. I tried to remain strong and bottled up the sadness i deeply feel. I was at work and I couldn't let anything distract me.

But how does one try to remain calm after hearing that my dad may have cancer? Tell me. how?

I've heard about other people with cancer and beat the disease. I've also heard people die because of it. I heard a lot of things about cancer......... but it doesn't quite affect you the way it does when it hits close to home...

It hurts. It aches. It's terrifying. It's sad.

I haven't really been able to sleep since I found out. I'm scared. I'm worried. My heart pains when I think about it. And all I can do right now is be there for them as we wait for the biopsy and CT Scan result.

One thing that touched my heart after learning about my dad's illness is knowing how many people care about him, how many people love my parents, and the number of support we're getting for our family. We have been surrounded with prayers and true friends who are supporting us as we go through this ordeal. That alone truly makes a big difference. I can honestly say it's a relief to know that people care.