Pregnancy Journey

I wasn't sure what to expect with my pregnancy when I received confirmation that I was pregnant. I was scared for the most part and couldn't stop thinking of the pain I'm going to have to endure in the next few months. I didn't throw up like other women but I was always nauseous, it sucked. I wanted to stay home and sleep all day. I was tired, uncomfortable, and annoyed that I felt sick most of the time. Most of the pregnancy sites I've visited promised that morning sickness will wane away in the second trimester, which felt like it was never going to come.



I remember the first time the hubs and i heard the baby's heart beat. It was so surreal. The look on his face was priceless. He was one happy Daddy-to-be, and I could see how excited he is to meet his baby. At 11 weeks, the little pea that we once saw 3 weeks before has now formed into a shape of a baby. The sonogram showed the baby's head, hands, and feet. I couldn't believe my eyes that there's another living thing inside me. I was dwelling in that image and heartbeat for a couple of days that I forgot I was feeling sick. I was in heaven.

Then reality kicked in: tests after tests, long commute, cold weather, nausea, hunger, stomach growling in public, gas, getting fatter, and peeing more frequently. It's not always heavenly. It's not always pretty. It's definitely not easy. I was unhappy with how much weight I've gained when pregnancy sites state I should only be gaining 4-5 lbs. I didn't feel normal. I felt fat. My face was breaking out. My hair was dry and I hated how it touches my neck.

Now that I've gone past the first trimester and the nausea, I'm beginning to enjoy my pregnancy. I'm learning to embrace my bulging my belly, even though people tell me I'm big for 4 months. I still sometimes feel fat but I also know I'm pregnant.